Evolution Two – week Two
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Hello Folks,
What is it that really keeps us motivated on the path to continued self-care? The last couple of weeks have been incredibly emotional for me. I noticed myself being more and more challenged to stay on track with my program. I tend to default to exercise first, because it comes more naturally for me to exercise. I have it in my mind that if I can at least keep up with my exercise I won’t have entirely failed.
And what is failure? Completely giving up. I am too determined to meet my goals by the time I turn 40 that giving up is not an option. Do I get disheartened when I see no progress or I notice days where I don’t fulfill what I ask of myself? Definitely. When that happens I offer up to myself the next hour or the next day to continue on.
Lately my lack of focus has been around food. It is easy for fall off course when it comes to food. Since I have been emotional and have noticed myself not being as consistent with my diet program, I have made a few simple rules to follow.
I tell myself each day to stick to the foods that I have been eating. I have mainly been doing that, except an occasional small thing. For example, the other day I was really craving something sweet. In my mind that meant something sugary. I had to really talk to myself over and over again, until I convinced myself that a smoothie would be a good sweet treat that I could eat, that wouldn’t “ruin” my program.
And what is ruin my program really? It means I didn’t live up to my contract for myself. Every time I don’t live up to a contract I make for myself, I “feel” like a failure. So in order to “feel” success I set small goals (especially during difficult periods in my life); that way, there is little room for failure.
Knowing that when I am emotional I start to eat more and more, my goal for now is to eat the way I have been eating, maintain my exercise program and worry about weight loss progress later. For the last couple of weeks I was planning on reducing my caloric intake or increasing my exercise. I did a little exercise increase, but find my appetite going up a little. Instead of eating food that would easily help me to put on the pounds I eat other food that I have been eating, but probably closer to the maintenance number of calories.
As a result my body is still progressing in that it is not backsliding, and my fitness is still increasing. When I start to have more consistency emotionally I will take it to the next level. For now I am happy to keep it as is; besides as it is I am very happy with my body.
Here are the pictures...
June 3, 2009: Day 94
Exercise: Continuous, Interval Training (biking, row machine)
Hello Folks,
What is it that really keeps us motivated on the path to continued self-care? The last couple of weeks have been incredibly emotional for me. I noticed myself being more and more challenged to stay on track with my program. I tend to default to exercise first, because it comes more naturally for me to exercise. I have it in my mind that if I can at least keep up with my exercise I won’t have entirely failed.
And what is failure? Completely giving up. I am too determined to meet my goals by the time I turn 40 that giving up is not an option. Do I get disheartened when I see no progress or I notice days where I don’t fulfill what I ask of myself? Definitely. When that happens I offer up to myself the next hour or the next day to continue on.
Lately my lack of focus has been around food. It is easy for fall off course when it comes to food. Since I have been emotional and have noticed myself not being as consistent with my diet program, I have made a few simple rules to follow.
I tell myself each day to stick to the foods that I have been eating. I have mainly been doing that, except an occasional small thing. For example, the other day I was really craving something sweet. In my mind that meant something sugary. I had to really talk to myself over and over again, until I convinced myself that a smoothie would be a good sweet treat that I could eat, that wouldn’t “ruin” my program.
And what is ruin my program really? It means I didn’t live up to my contract for myself. Every time I don’t live up to a contract I make for myself, I “feel” like a failure. So in order to “feel” success I set small goals (especially during difficult periods in my life); that way, there is little room for failure.
Knowing that when I am emotional I start to eat more and more, my goal for now is to eat the way I have been eating, maintain my exercise program and worry about weight loss progress later. For the last couple of weeks I was planning on reducing my caloric intake or increasing my exercise. I did a little exercise increase, but find my appetite going up a little. Instead of eating food that would easily help me to put on the pounds I eat other food that I have been eating, but probably closer to the maintenance number of calories.
As a result my body is still progressing in that it is not backsliding, and my fitness is still increasing. When I start to have more consistency emotionally I will take it to the next level. For now I am happy to keep it as is; besides as it is I am very happy with my body.
Here are the pictures...
June 3, 2009: Day 94
Exercise: Continuous, Interval Training (biking, row machine)
Menu: Veggies and Protein
Until next time…
Think, Believe, Act, Achieve
Dakota
Today’s Mantra: To fail is to never try or to completely give up.
Until next time…
Think, Believe, Act, Achieve
Dakota
Today’s Mantra: To fail is to never try or to completely give up.
