Evolution one – week eight
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Hello Folks,
What a long night I had! I still dragged myself out of bed and did my workout for the day! There is something really motivating about knowing that I will have to take pictures and record my progress on-line! Also, yesterday my weight dropped a little, which inspired me!
I wanted to talk a little bit about why I decided to tackle a body transformation. Besides the usual, I want to lose weight and feel better about myself, I have a few other reasons.
The most important reason I am doing this is because I really want to change my life condition. I have spent years reading everything and anything about the psychology of self-creation. I studied books like the Tao of Physics, The Law of Attraction, The Seat of the Soul, Chicken Soup for the Soul…etc. I watched movies like The Secret and The Matrix and What the Bleep Do We Know.
After years of reading and pondering over the ideas presented in those materials, I grew to believe that everything that I experience is, in part, a result of my perspective and view of the world (my own creation). I also believe that my thoughts, attitude, resiliance, courage and acts play a role in my experience.
The problem is that, despite all of that learning and philosophizing, I still deferred to the victim role. I still, deep down, felt like a victim of circumstance. So, one part of me believes in the power to create whatever I want in life; whatever I desire, experience and achieve. Another part of me resists that idea.
So, last year I re-visited all of the old books I read, and watched the Secret over and over again. It was a rough year for me. My favorite book that I tend to re-visit when I am having a hard time is “When Things Fall Apart,” by Pema Chodron. She says when things fall apart that it is better to lean into the pain than run away from it.
Last year, for the first time, I broke a pattern I had fallen back on for so many years. I didn’t run away from my pain. I faced it head on, like Pema Chodron says in her book. I thought that if I face it head on the pain would heal quicker. The pain didn’t heal quicker, but I learned one very important thing about life. If you face your pain and fear head-on it loses its power over you.
For once, I was so much more conscious of what I was feeling day to day. I wasn’t in a daze at all. Which, at first, is actually more painful than trying to forget about the pain and move on. After a very long year, which I survived thankfully, because of a dear circle of friends who held me, I recovered from my loss and moved on.
I had a few more challenges in my life this year and decided I was going to REALLY change my life’s condition. I decided that I no longer wanted to sit back and be a victim anymore. I decided I wanted to make some big changes.
And finally I decided to make those changes by applying the Law of Attraction!
I decided to combine the law of attraction principles with Pema Chodron's ideas about leaning into your pain.
I am making this my great experiment with life. The Dalai Lama always says that if you don’t believe, then try and see if it is true for you, if it is – GREAT, if it isn’t, then find what is true for you. I am using this Body Evolution experiment as a platform for testing and applying the law of attraction.
I chose weight loss, because it is the one thing in my life that has eluded me the most. I truly struggle with believing in my ability to change this particular part of my life. I have always felt victim to it.
I figured that if I could take my most difficult challenge and apply the law of attraction and succeed at it, that I could do anything and create anything I want for my life!
I am an idealist for sure! I am also a realist, in that, I know there will be challenges along the way. It is inevitable, or life just wouldn’t be that interesting, eh? I am using this experiment to prepare my mindset to use any challenges as a guide for success, rather than quitting.
This is just one of many experiments I will be conducting to see for myself if the law of attraction really works. I am hoping that by sharing them with you, I will inspire you, too!
Here are my pictures...
April 22, 2009: Day 52
Exercise: Interval (30 min. Run)
Menu: Veggies and Protein
Until next time…
Think, Believe, Act, Achieve
Dakota
Today’s Mantra: : Lean in and apply the law of attraction
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Hello Folks,
What a long night I had! I still dragged myself out of bed and did my workout for the day! There is something really motivating about knowing that I will have to take pictures and record my progress on-line! Also, yesterday my weight dropped a little, which inspired me!
I wanted to talk a little bit about why I decided to tackle a body transformation. Besides the usual, I want to lose weight and feel better about myself, I have a few other reasons.
The most important reason I am doing this is because I really want to change my life condition. I have spent years reading everything and anything about the psychology of self-creation. I studied books like the Tao of Physics, The Law of Attraction, The Seat of the Soul, Chicken Soup for the Soul…etc. I watched movies like The Secret and The Matrix and What the Bleep Do We Know.
After years of reading and pondering over the ideas presented in those materials, I grew to believe that everything that I experience is, in part, a result of my perspective and view of the world (my own creation). I also believe that my thoughts, attitude, resiliance, courage and acts play a role in my experience.
The problem is that, despite all of that learning and philosophizing, I still deferred to the victim role. I still, deep down, felt like a victim of circumstance. So, one part of me believes in the power to create whatever I want in life; whatever I desire, experience and achieve. Another part of me resists that idea.
So, last year I re-visited all of the old books I read, and watched the Secret over and over again. It was a rough year for me. My favorite book that I tend to re-visit when I am having a hard time is “When Things Fall Apart,” by Pema Chodron. She says when things fall apart that it is better to lean into the pain than run away from it.
Last year, for the first time, I broke a pattern I had fallen back on for so many years. I didn’t run away from my pain. I faced it head on, like Pema Chodron says in her book. I thought that if I face it head on the pain would heal quicker. The pain didn’t heal quicker, but I learned one very important thing about life. If you face your pain and fear head-on it loses its power over you.
For once, I was so much more conscious of what I was feeling day to day. I wasn’t in a daze at all. Which, at first, is actually more painful than trying to forget about the pain and move on. After a very long year, which I survived thankfully, because of a dear circle of friends who held me, I recovered from my loss and moved on.
I had a few more challenges in my life this year and decided I was going to REALLY change my life’s condition. I decided that I no longer wanted to sit back and be a victim anymore. I decided I wanted to make some big changes.
And finally I decided to make those changes by applying the Law of Attraction!
I decided to combine the law of attraction principles with Pema Chodron's ideas about leaning into your pain.
I am making this my great experiment with life. The Dalai Lama always says that if you don’t believe, then try and see if it is true for you, if it is – GREAT, if it isn’t, then find what is true for you. I am using this Body Evolution experiment as a platform for testing and applying the law of attraction.
I chose weight loss, because it is the one thing in my life that has eluded me the most. I truly struggle with believing in my ability to change this particular part of my life. I have always felt victim to it.
I figured that if I could take my most difficult challenge and apply the law of attraction and succeed at it, that I could do anything and create anything I want for my life!
I am an idealist for sure! I am also a realist, in that, I know there will be challenges along the way. It is inevitable, or life just wouldn’t be that interesting, eh? I am using this experiment to prepare my mindset to use any challenges as a guide for success, rather than quitting.
This is just one of many experiments I will be conducting to see for myself if the law of attraction really works. I am hoping that by sharing them with you, I will inspire you, too!
Here are my pictures...
April 22, 2009: Day 52
Exercise: Interval (30 min. Run)
Menu: Veggies and Protein
Until next time…
Think, Believe, Act, Achieve
Dakota
Today’s Mantra: : Lean in and apply the law of attraction
